+ No appointments on Friday!
– Two appointments on Saturday. WTF doctors, Saturday is supposed to be my day off from keeping the medical professionals of the Hudson Valley in business!!
+ You might as well change “Friday” to “Gotshitdoneday” because I got.shit.done. I’m talking filing, bills, tax prep, dusting, dishes, countertops, et-motherfucking-cetera. It felt great to check things off the list, but I’m so off lately that I still feel overwhelmed, stressed and exhausted.
+/- New medication to try from psychiatrist to deal with the aforementioned continuous feelings of stress, overwhelmedness (new word), and exhaustion. Of course, I can’t start it until Monday when I hear back from the company who manufactures it and they hopefully confirm that it is gluten-free.
+ Catching up on Seasons 8 and 9 of Grey’s Anatomy is so freaking hilarious. To paraphrase a scene: “Meredith, you can do this! You have survived a plane crash, a bomb, a gunman, a bus crash, a boat crash, a car accident, cancer, an outbreak of Ebola, and all of that was just last week! You can have this baby in the dark during the storm of the century via c-section with no anesthesia because the show is named after you! I know you can do this!”
– I wish I could control my emotions better and not cry when the smoke clears and a doctor is slow-motion walking away from an exploding bus with a baby in his arms. It’s such a stupid show. Why can’t I NOT cry at that?!
+ My interlibrary loan books are in at the library! Fifteen books on open adoption, interracial adoption, the perspective of the birth parents, the adoptive extended family, and the child. When you’ve trained in research like I have, everything you do becomes a project with a bibliography. C’est la vie avec Joan!
– French. Grrrrrrrr. Why do I love it so much when it has hurt me so deep?
– I’m still not getting answers on what’s going on with Cliffy. His breath smells indicate something serious is going on with his kidneys or liver and his liver panels came back with issues, but I can’t get the doctor to give me an answer on what’s the next step because she wants to hear from the neurologist before she proceeds and the neurologist considers this no longer her wheelhouse since his seizures were caused by liver encephalopathy, not neurological issues. UGH. I just want him to feel better. And to live forever.
+ I started working on our Christmas card for 2014! That felt good!
+ Todd made me gluten free muffins with craisins this morning and they weren’t terrible! The texture is a little gritty (I think it’s the rice flour that always does that) but they actually were crumbly and moist and the flavor was dead-on! He used the King Arthur Flour brand GF Vanilla Muffin Base mix. Whoop there it is!
+/- Chris March got kicked off Project Runway: Allstars on this week’s episode, and on the one hand I’m very sad because I love him but on the other hand his shit was bananas (b-a-n-a-n-a-s) so I totally get it.